Thursday, September 30, 2010

h.a.p.p.y

Happy birthday to ME!! Yup, today I'm celebrating my birthday and i can tell its gonna be a great day.

Yesterday I got an early present... taking a shower! Haha! I forgot how hard it was going up those stairs! We had to set out a good hour+ just to take a shower and to get up and down the stairs (Which took about 10 minutes each way!) It was quite painful but as the days go by, I hope it gets easier and easier.
After getting back downstairs I set in the wheelchair for the rest of the evening and watched TV and read my book. It was nice to be out of bed even if I wasn't out of the house... but that's today!! I'm heading to the Dr. to get my stitches out of the right hip and he'll check out the incision on the left, and after that, my Mom, sister Katie and I are headed to Kohls to do a little shopping. I'm looking forward to getting out of he house!!! woohoo! My first time in almost a week!

But here are some pictures to enjoy!
** Jacob couldn't make it to the hospital this morning so I'm holding my dog he gave me before my last surgery.


** A few hours afer leaving recovery and the flowers are from the Staff at College Park Church! Thank you so much!


** Visitors! Thanks Laura, Ash and Katie (Taking the picture)


** All my flowers! From CPC, Marcie, Amy and Tad, Jacob, and my family in B'ham!


** ...yup... i'm pretty swollen! haha!

Monday, September 27, 2010

Up to now..

Hospital Trip Round #2!

Tuesday morning I got up about 5:15am, did a few last minute things before we left for the hospital. I got checked in to the main hospital and went up to surgery admission and turned in all my paper work where Pastor Don was waiting for us! He prayed with us before I headed back to pre-op to get ready for surgery. It felt like FOREVER that I was back there alone and finally the nurse (not the most friendly but she was alright) came back and we got things started. This time, the IV was the worst! I threw up after she got it put it and what made it bad was there was nothing to throw up but stomach acid. It was horrible...I cried. After which, my parents came back just as Dr. Ambrose got there and explained his part in the surgery (it was pretty easy because he was the anesthesiologist for my last surgery as well). Then Scheid came in, and talked to me and my parents a little, then Ambrose came back in and took me away. The OR was not as bright as I remembered it being but it was just as cold. I remember talking to Ambrose's' assistant about my wedding dress as they placed monitors on my chest and sides, they strapped my arms out to each side and then I could feel the drugs! I remember the room moving and them telling me to "sleep well!" then I was out.

Waking up was so different than last time. I remember I was SOOO itchy but I was more awake and talking to the nurses more than last time. I had them put my glasses on even though the goo was still on my eyes, and they kept telling me to stop rubbing my eyes because I could scratch them, but I couldn't stop. When the nurse told me he was going to take out my arterial line, I told me I threw up last time, and as soon as I said that I started coughing then BAM! puke everywhere! I remember him laughing and saying," I hadn't even touched her yet and she was already getting sick!" it was kind of funny, but really shows it is totally a mind thing.
I slightly remember them taking me up to my room, but I do remember being on the surgery cart for a while before they could find me a bed (they said they got my bed ready in my room, but when we arrived, it was gone! so we had to wait a couple hours before we got another one. The rest of the night is a blur but I did start eating that night, which was a GREAT improvement from the last surgery.

Wednesday was pretty mellow. They drew my blood every morning I was there, with pills and vitals and this morning my blood count was below 7.5 so Denise came in about 6am and told me I was getting both units back that day! They asked if I wanted to start a second IV so I could have my blood and PCA going at the same time and I said NO WAY! I'll deal without the pump for a few hours at a time. Jacob came to visit for most of the morning before heading back to IL for the night. It was so great having him there, he made things much better that morning :)
Lauren also came to visit in the evening and I sat up like PT wanted me to do that night, so when my parents were there, we were all making fun of my smile because I was so drugged my smile looked funny! It was nice to have family there too! I love them!

Not much happened Thursday. My collection of flowers kept growing and it brightened up my day every time I saw someone bring more to my room :) I kept texting Jessica C. and she laughed when I sent her a picture of myself and said I looked so stoned! What do people expect?! I'm pumping morphine into my body every 10 min I want, I think I might look a little high ;-) Ashley, Katie and Laura came to visit that night and it was wonderful to see them! From when I wasn't sleeping, it was nice to see someone else besides the helicopter pad and walls outside my window! I was soooo thankful that my Mom came to stay with me that night as well because the nurse I had was .... well, I'll be kind and say I'm thankful that I will never have to see here again. Being my Mom and nurse herself, my mom was pretty upset and shocked at the way the nurse handled things (or in my case, didn't handle them at all).

Friday morning I did cry when the nurse told me she had to draw more blood because the night nurse didn't draw enough (even having to stick me a couple different times) She went out and talked to Denise and said the blood count was around 9.5 so it was ok not to draw again. I got up and went to my bathroom for the first time (not using my commode) and I made it all the way back to bed without help! The floor manager also came to speak with me that morning about issues I had that night and she was very sorry about everything that happened and we did get things worked out but everyone that morning was so sweet and very caring! When PT came, I got over my first step and (along with Denise) she gave me the thumbs up for an OK to go home! (A day earlier than last time! Woohoo!) So we packed up my stuff, signed paper work, took out my IV, got my Dad to come to the hospital to pick me up, and I was on my way home around 1:30pm! We didn't have the wheelchair when we left the hospital so I had to walk from the car to my bed inside but I MADE IT! But the down side to that is on Saturday night before bed, I was walking to the bathroom, and I broke down. I hadn't been getting enough fluids (the IV does wonders in the hospital), I was sore, tired, and I had forgotten how hard this surgery takes a toll on my body. My Dad was very encouraging, saying that I'm WAY ahead of where I was last time with the surgery and it will only get better from here on out.

Today I did get to sit outside in my wheelchair while my mom washed my hair! It was the best feeling ever! I sat out there, read my book and let the sun beat down on my body while I relaxed in Gods creation! I do give all my credit to my Father who has been with me from the very beginning! He was with me in surgery, in recovery, every night at the hospital when I felt so scared and was in so much pain, He never left my side. I do believe he put His healing hands on my body and has done wonderful things! Since I had both hips worked on this time around, I was scared if my right hip wold really support all my weight the first time I stood up, but everything went well.

Both sides are still very sore and VERY swollen (even pants that I wore last time don't fit because both sides are swollen!) So I'm stuck wearing the same pare of pants that DO fit until some of the swelling goes down, and I hope that's soon! Haha! I do get to have the stitches taken out of the right hip incisions on my birthday (Thursday) and I think we're going to try to head to Kohl's as well and make it a special birthday outing! As far as the left hip goes, he glued it and put in dissolvable stitches so he won't be taking anything out of that incision.

Thank you for all the encouragement, and advice I have gotten from everyone! I know Saturday was a hard day and it was a pretty depressing day but it can only get better. I know I still have hard days a head of me and I'll take them when they come, but as I have been telling Jacob as well as myself, this is only temporary and the pain won't last forever.

Keep your eyes posted for pictures to come! Thanks again and until my next post...
:-)

Saturday, September 25, 2010

What is pain?

This isn't going to be as easy as I had thought :( I know it was going to be rough the first few weeks but you can't imagine how "rough" this kinda of pain is until you are living it. :(

To kinda of get and "idea" of the pain, think of constant pressure on the stomach and leg with the pain on knives staying in your body around your hip; if you move your knee your whole body hurts. your hands, shoulders, and arms are sore from laying in the same position 20 hours a day. Your heels hurt from having pressure on the bed but not moving. When you are walking if you try to move our hip when your foot is not ready, you have fire running up and down your leg and knives to join. but you can't put your foot on the floor the whole way because if you put too much weight on that foot your stomach/hip will have sharp pain lasting in you for a while. You can't cough, laugh or sneeze without grasping your stomach for relief.
Yeah this is just the beginning...
day 5 down...

Lord give me strength.

Friday, September 24, 2010

4 days post-op!

I'm 4 days post op and things are going great! My stomach and legs are hurting pretty bad because of surgery on both hips but despite the pain, the progress is moving along quite well!! (my arm is hurting too just because of all the blood draws, the IV and arterial line, so it's bruising and is really sore ) :/
I'll post more and post pics later but for now, I'm doing well!

Thanks for the prayers, thoughts, flowers, cards, candy and get well wishes!! *hugs*

Saturday, September 18, 2010

What a weekend!

How did I get to only being 2 days away from my second PAO???? When Krystal and I first started the countdown, we started at like 107 days.. now I'm down to 2?!?! oh boy.

I'm ready for surgery and at the same time I'm not. My feelings about it keep going up and down, up then back down again. On Thursday, Jacob, my parents, and I went to the church and had an elder and bunch of staff members pray over me as we did that last time and even the Bible tells us to ask for prayers from the elders of the church. In James it says " Is any one of you sick? He should call the elders of the church to pray over him and anoint him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up." I can be a testimony and say this is very true. At one of my appointments about a month after my first surgery my Dr. said he hadn't seen someone recover from this procedure as quickly as I had and I give all the Glory to my Heavenly Father! He really did touch me, heal me and has made me better and I owe Him everything I have.
This time around Jacob won't be at the hospital when I go into the OR but he will be there later that night so I guess I have something to look forward to ;-) But I'll have Oscar with me so I guess I'll have a "part" of him with me. Haha!
I do want to take a moment and thank my parents for ALLLLL that have done for me, did for me and are getting ready to help me all over again! I know I wasn't always an easy person to take care of and I know they put up with a lot of my emotions last time and I want to tell them I LOVE them so much and I'm sooo thankful to have them as parents, who love me and will do what they can to take care of me as I go through this process all over again! I love you both!!

Today was an amazing day! I got to be a part of and witness 2 friends come together as 1! Emily and Nick had such an amazing and beautiful wedding! Congrats and I love you both!
Friday was my last day of work until I go back in November and it was actually kinda sad to clock out when it was time to leave.

I do feel like I have a TON of stuff to get done before I go to the hospital Tuesday morning. Lots of emails to send off for the wedding, a class, dinner and game date with my (amazing and WONDERFUL)Fiance, then I have a date Monday morning with my sis and a dinner date with my friend Lauren.
I'm going to do my best to get out and enjoy these next couple days! Please keep me in your prayers as I get my mind and body ready these next couple days. I'll be sure to update once more before surgery.

Until next time...

Friday, September 3, 2010

Holiday weekend...

18 days!! I'm getting excited and I'm scared! I know someone who just had his surgery this morning and things went great so it makes me feel better about going in, in a could weeks. I'm SOOO thankful that both blood donations are past me! First one went great but the second wasn't...so..good. Lets just say I won't be eatting fried chicken again for a loong time!!

I just want to take a second and share that I'm so in love with Jacob Ryan! He's the love of my life, I have enjoyed seeing him grow so much over the past 16 months and I can not WAIT to be his wife! We made lunch together today at his house, we enjoyed this wonderful weather, and spent some time relaxing on the couch, laughing and spending time together before I went to work this afternoon. He makes me so happy!! <3

Ok well, not really a whole lot else to update on right now. Keep your eyes here and I'll be sharing more as surgery gets closer.. Night!