This isn't going to be as easy as I had thought :( I know it was going to be rough the first few weeks but you can't imagine how "rough" this kinda of pain is until you are living it. :(
To kinda of get and "idea" of the pain, think of constant pressure on the stomach and leg with the pain on knives staying in your body around your hip; if you move your knee your whole body hurts. your hands, shoulders, and arms are sore from laying in the same position 20 hours a day. Your heels hurt from having pressure on the bed but not moving. When you are walking if you try to move our hip when your foot is not ready, you have fire running up and down your leg and knives to join. but you can't put your foot on the floor the whole way because if you put too much weight on that foot your stomach/hip will have sharp pain lasting in you for a while. You can't cough, laugh or sneeze without grasping your stomach for relief.
Yeah this is just the beginning...
day 5 down...
Lord give me strength.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
4 days post-op!
I'm 4 days post op and things are going great! My stomach and legs are hurting pretty bad because of surgery on both hips but despite the pain, the progress is moving along quite well!! (my arm is hurting too just because of all the blood draws, the IV and arterial line, so it's bruising and is really sore ) :/
I'll post more and post pics later but for now, I'm doing well!
Thanks for the prayers, thoughts, flowers, cards, candy and get well wishes!! *hugs*
I'll post more and post pics later but for now, I'm doing well!
Thanks for the prayers, thoughts, flowers, cards, candy and get well wishes!! *hugs*
Saturday, September 18, 2010
What a weekend!
How did I get to only being 2 days away from my second PAO???? When Krystal and I first started the countdown, we started at like 107 days.. now I'm down to 2?!?! oh boy.
I'm ready for surgery and at the same time I'm not. My feelings about it keep going up and down, up then back down again. On Thursday, Jacob, my parents, and I went to the church and had an elder and bunch of staff members pray over me as we did that last time and even the Bible tells us to ask for prayers from the elders of the church. In James it says " Is any one of you sick? He should call the elders of the church to pray over him and anoint him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up." I can be a testimony and say this is very true. At one of my appointments about a month after my first surgery my Dr. said he hadn't seen someone recover from this procedure as quickly as I had and I give all the Glory to my Heavenly Father! He really did touch me, heal me and has made me better and I owe Him everything I have.
This time around Jacob won't be at the hospital when I go into the OR but he will be there later that night so I guess I have something to look forward to ;-) But I'll have Oscar with me so I guess I'll have a "part" of him with me. Haha!
I do want to take a moment and thank my parents for ALLLLL that have done for me, did for me and are getting ready to help me all over again! I know I wasn't always an easy person to take care of and I know they put up with a lot of my emotions last time and I want to tell them I LOVE them so much and I'm sooo thankful to have them as parents, who love me and will do what they can to take care of me as I go through this process all over again! I love you both!!
Today was an amazing day! I got to be a part of and witness 2 friends come together as 1! Emily and Nick had such an amazing and beautiful wedding! Congrats and I love you both!
Friday was my last day of work until I go back in November and it was actually kinda sad to clock out when it was time to leave.
I do feel like I have a TON of stuff to get done before I go to the hospital Tuesday morning. Lots of emails to send off for the wedding, a class, dinner and game date with my (amazing and WONDERFUL)Fiance, then I have a date Monday morning with my sis and a dinner date with my friend Lauren.
I'm going to do my best to get out and enjoy these next couple days! Please keep me in your prayers as I get my mind and body ready these next couple days. I'll be sure to update once more before surgery.
Until next time...
I'm ready for surgery and at the same time I'm not. My feelings about it keep going up and down, up then back down again. On Thursday, Jacob, my parents, and I went to the church and had an elder and bunch of staff members pray over me as we did that last time and even the Bible tells us to ask for prayers from the elders of the church. In James it says " Is any one of you sick? He should call the elders of the church to pray over him and anoint him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up." I can be a testimony and say this is very true. At one of my appointments about a month after my first surgery my Dr. said he hadn't seen someone recover from this procedure as quickly as I had and I give all the Glory to my Heavenly Father! He really did touch me, heal me and has made me better and I owe Him everything I have.
This time around Jacob won't be at the hospital when I go into the OR but he will be there later that night so I guess I have something to look forward to ;-) But I'll have Oscar with me so I guess I'll have a "part" of him with me. Haha!
I do want to take a moment and thank my parents for ALLLLL that have done for me, did for me and are getting ready to help me all over again! I know I wasn't always an easy person to take care of and I know they put up with a lot of my emotions last time and I want to tell them I LOVE them so much and I'm sooo thankful to have them as parents, who love me and will do what they can to take care of me as I go through this process all over again! I love you both!!
Today was an amazing day! I got to be a part of and witness 2 friends come together as 1! Emily and Nick had such an amazing and beautiful wedding! Congrats and I love you both!
Friday was my last day of work until I go back in November and it was actually kinda sad to clock out when it was time to leave.
I do feel like I have a TON of stuff to get done before I go to the hospital Tuesday morning. Lots of emails to send off for the wedding, a class, dinner and game date with my (amazing and WONDERFUL)Fiance, then I have a date Monday morning with my sis and a dinner date with my friend Lauren.
I'm going to do my best to get out and enjoy these next couple days! Please keep me in your prayers as I get my mind and body ready these next couple days. I'll be sure to update once more before surgery.
Until next time...
Friday, September 3, 2010
Holiday weekend...
18 days!! I'm getting excited and I'm scared! I know someone who just had his surgery this morning and things went great so it makes me feel better about going in, in a could weeks. I'm SOOO thankful that both blood donations are past me! First one went great but the second wasn't...so..good. Lets just say I won't be eatting fried chicken again for a loong time!!
I just want to take a second and share that I'm so in love with Jacob Ryan! He's the love of my life, I have enjoyed seeing him grow so much over the past 16 months and I can not WAIT to be his wife! We made lunch together today at his house, we enjoyed this wonderful weather, and spent some time relaxing on the couch, laughing and spending time together before I went to work this afternoon. He makes me so happy!! <3
Ok well, not really a whole lot else to update on right now. Keep your eyes here and I'll be sharing more as surgery gets closer.. Night!
I just want to take a second and share that I'm so in love with Jacob Ryan! He's the love of my life, I have enjoyed seeing him grow so much over the past 16 months and I can not WAIT to be his wife! We made lunch together today at his house, we enjoyed this wonderful weather, and spent some time relaxing on the couch, laughing and spending time together before I went to work this afternoon. He makes me so happy!! <3
Ok well, not really a whole lot else to update on right now. Keep your eyes here and I'll be sharing more as surgery gets closer.. Night!
Thursday, August 26, 2010
8-26-10
26 days until surgery! I had my Dr's appointment this morning and this is the news I got:
I got some pills to help with nausea for giving blood next week and also help helping to discern what I had a reaction to last time after surgery. My body peeled really bad for a few weeks and so we're gonna do a test to see if we can figure out what the cause was.
I told Scheid about the screw I can see and that I can feel (what I thought was coming out), and he felt around the incision and found another screw right above the one I could see. He told me it's not coming out BUT because the swelling is all gone and because I'm so thin, I can see the bone easily which leads to feeling the screws more than other people would. (My mom thought is was pre-wedding dieting and I don't see how that could be, seeing I eat all the junk food in the world and I still don't gain weight! Haha! I have actually lost about 10lbs since surgery and it's still going down...)
So... anyway back to the screws. Scheid said that he normally won't take them out because the bones grow around them and unless they bother the patient, there is no point in digging around, trying to get them out, but because I can feel them and they do hurt, he'll take them out. In surgery, he said he'll go in and make a couple little incisions and take out the 2 screws. Not any trouble at all. So I won't have as many screws in me as i thought, but that's ok ;-) haha!
(The 2 circled is yellow are the ones he'll be taking out...)
I also requested that I have general anesthetic along with an epidural and they already made the phone call to request that for me, so hopefully that will help with the pain again!
So over all, it was a great appointment! The next time I see my doctor, he'll be saying "See you on the other side!" yeah... oh boy. It's just over 3 weeks away. eeks!
The blood donation went really well yesterday too. I was pretty scared because last time I donated, I threw up both days and that REALLY scared me. But I took some Zofran and that did wonders!!! Also, my sister was there to distract me so that helped a lot. No seeing my breakfast, this time around! Haha
If I can make it through next week, I'll be all set to go.
Now switching topics a little...
Jacob and I are have great meetings with Jeff & Pam! I look forward to our times with them every week. The Lord is so present in our talks through the weeks and I'm so thankful that the Lord is really showing through in both our lives. I know for me the Lord is really pointing out areas for me to grow more in, to trust in Him more, and to rely on Him in EVERY aspect of my day, every week. I'm excited to learn more and to grow closer to God through the life that He has given me. That's my main goal, to bring Him praise, honor and glory, though every word that comes out of my mouth and every action my body takes. Every word I speak is His. He gave me these words and I want to bring a smile to his face when I use them. That's something that Jacob and I have been talking about with Jeff and Pam and reading about in The War of Words. When we grumble about a situation in our life or something we are going through, we are in fact grumbling in the face of God. Wow. God is in complete control of our lives and He puts situations in our lives for a reason and to teach us something and when we grumble about it, we're complaining that God is trying to teach us something wonderful and trying to mold us to be like Him.
I could go on and on about stuff I have been learning but for now, I need to get ready for work...
Look for my next post.. surgery is getting closer!
I got some pills to help with nausea for giving blood next week and also help helping to discern what I had a reaction to last time after surgery. My body peeled really bad for a few weeks and so we're gonna do a test to see if we can figure out what the cause was.
I told Scheid about the screw I can see and that I can feel (what I thought was coming out), and he felt around the incision and found another screw right above the one I could see. He told me it's not coming out BUT because the swelling is all gone and because I'm so thin, I can see the bone easily which leads to feeling the screws more than other people would. (My mom thought is was pre-wedding dieting and I don't see how that could be, seeing I eat all the junk food in the world and I still don't gain weight! Haha! I have actually lost about 10lbs since surgery and it's still going down...)
So... anyway back to the screws. Scheid said that he normally won't take them out because the bones grow around them and unless they bother the patient, there is no point in digging around, trying to get them out, but because I can feel them and they do hurt, he'll take them out. In surgery, he said he'll go in and make a couple little incisions and take out the 2 screws. Not any trouble at all. So I won't have as many screws in me as i thought, but that's ok ;-) haha!
(The 2 circled is yellow are the ones he'll be taking out...)
I also requested that I have general anesthetic along with an epidural and they already made the phone call to request that for me, so hopefully that will help with the pain again!
So over all, it was a great appointment! The next time I see my doctor, he'll be saying "See you on the other side!" yeah... oh boy. It's just over 3 weeks away. eeks!
The blood donation went really well yesterday too. I was pretty scared because last time I donated, I threw up both days and that REALLY scared me. But I took some Zofran and that did wonders!!! Also, my sister was there to distract me so that helped a lot. No seeing my breakfast, this time around! Haha
If I can make it through next week, I'll be all set to go.
Now switching topics a little...
Jacob and I are have great meetings with Jeff & Pam! I look forward to our times with them every week. The Lord is so present in our talks through the weeks and I'm so thankful that the Lord is really showing through in both our lives. I know for me the Lord is really pointing out areas for me to grow more in, to trust in Him more, and to rely on Him in EVERY aspect of my day, every week. I'm excited to learn more and to grow closer to God through the life that He has given me. That's my main goal, to bring Him praise, honor and glory, though every word that comes out of my mouth and every action my body takes. Every word I speak is His. He gave me these words and I want to bring a smile to his face when I use them. That's something that Jacob and I have been talking about with Jeff and Pam and reading about in The War of Words. When we grumble about a situation in our life or something we are going through, we are in fact grumbling in the face of God. Wow. God is in complete control of our lives and He puts situations in our lives for a reason and to teach us something and when we grumble about it, we're complaining that God is trying to teach us something wonderful and trying to mold us to be like Him.
I could go on and on about stuff I have been learning but for now, I need to get ready for work...
Look for my next post.. surgery is getting closer!
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
35 DAYS...
before I go under the knife (and saw and chisel and screws and everything else they use in this surgery that's apparently harder the preform than open heart surgery...) I just officially freaked out...
Saturday, August 7, 2010
August!
Wow. Can you believe it's already August? I know, I know, almost every other person is saying that right now but it's true! What seemed like a couple weeks ago I was heading home from work and little did I know I was going to be engaged by the end of the night! and that was LAST YEAR! And look at me now! Tomorrow is my 7 month post-op date, I heading into surgery again in just over 6 weeks, my 24th birthday is a week after my surgery and I'm getting married in under 200 days! I can't believe it. This year is FLYING by!
That being said, the Hippie Union is starting this Wednesday and going on through Sunday! Sadly, I had to step out of the Chicago part of the Union, because of finances (and it TOTALLY SUCKS!) I was soooooo looking forward to seeing the girls and hanging with them for a few days up there but I still get to see them on Saturday we're having a BIG girls slumber party on Saturday night and it's gonna ROCK!
I have like 45 days until my surgery. :/ In just over a week I'm giving my first unit of blood and on Sep. 1st, I'll be giving my second unit. My mom thinks I should only give 1 unit (so I don't loose too much blood before surgery), but seeing as last time, the first time I sat up out of bed, I passed out and the second time I got out of bed in 3 days, my BP dropped to like 80, I think I'll stick with 2 units! Other than that I'm not too worried about surgery. I'm ready to get it over with and be on the path to recovery... again! I have a goal to be off my crutches and my cain by new years so we'll see how that goes!
I'm also not looking forward to that possibility that Jacob might not be around very much for my recovery and that really sucks :( (more details to come later..) Besides God and my parents, he was the next best thing that got me through the first recovery.... *Sigh* :'( ok.. moving on...
I'm anxious to start wedding planning again! I had a dream last night that everyone in the wedding party was wearing Colts apparel, we were getting married in the produce section of Kroger and all the groomsmen were dancing to a choreographed routine... I was quite depressed in the dream and woke up thinking of everything I have to get done just so THAT DREAM does not happen!
Oh and Emily is getting married 3 days before my surgery! I'm so happy for her and Nick! And to be a part of her wedding is a true honor :) It's exciting to think that 6 years ago we hardly knew each other and now we're both in each others weddings! *sniff sniff* we're growing up.
Ok I'm sure there is more to be said but now I need to get off my computer, jump in bed and turn out my lights...
until next time..
<3
That being said, the Hippie Union is starting this Wednesday and going on through Sunday! Sadly, I had to step out of the Chicago part of the Union, because of finances (and it TOTALLY SUCKS!) I was soooooo looking forward to seeing the girls and hanging with them for a few days up there but I still get to see them on Saturday we're having a BIG girls slumber party on Saturday night and it's gonna ROCK!
I have like 45 days until my surgery. :/ In just over a week I'm giving my first unit of blood and on Sep. 1st, I'll be giving my second unit. My mom thinks I should only give 1 unit (so I don't loose too much blood before surgery), but seeing as last time, the first time I sat up out of bed, I passed out and the second time I got out of bed in 3 days, my BP dropped to like 80, I think I'll stick with 2 units! Other than that I'm not too worried about surgery. I'm ready to get it over with and be on the path to recovery... again! I have a goal to be off my crutches and my cain by new years so we'll see how that goes!
I'm also not looking forward to that possibility that Jacob might not be around very much for my recovery and that really sucks :( (more details to come later..) Besides God and my parents, he was the next best thing that got me through the first recovery.... *Sigh* :'( ok.. moving on...
I'm anxious to start wedding planning again! I had a dream last night that everyone in the wedding party was wearing Colts apparel, we were getting married in the produce section of Kroger and all the groomsmen were dancing to a choreographed routine... I was quite depressed in the dream and woke up thinking of everything I have to get done just so THAT DREAM does not happen!
Oh and Emily is getting married 3 days before my surgery! I'm so happy for her and Nick! And to be a part of her wedding is a true honor :) It's exciting to think that 6 years ago we hardly knew each other and now we're both in each others weddings! *sniff sniff* we're growing up.
Ok I'm sure there is more to be said but now I need to get off my computer, jump in bed and turn out my lights...
until next time..
<3
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